I'm trying to find balance between being a filmmaker and being a good father. Is there such a thing? My son just turned two in April. I was the first person he laid eyes on at birth and I've been his favorite person in the world since then (even over his mom).

I've been writing for little over a decade and started trying to make movies about five years ago. It went slow up until last October when I found this city's film community. Before then, I had only made a handful of youtube videos. Now, in the last six months, I've made five short films and a documentary. It picked up very fast.

I want to continue making movies and make a career out of it soon but I also want to hold on to the bond my son and I have. Everybody knows how much time it takes to shoot a movie. Even if it's only going to be ten minutes long, It could still take a whole day (or more). I try to take him on a few shoots with me but he's only two. He doesn't understand that he has to be quiet when I yell "action". I end up wasting the actors' time and making shoots longer than they have to be. It breaks my heart every time I walk out the door with my camera in hand and him screaminging the background. I know beyond a doubt that I'm talented enough to make it to an M. Night Shyamalan like level. All I need is to prove that to someone who can put me there, but I don't want to do it at the expense of my son.

This is my dilemma.

"Try not. Do, or do not. There is no try." - Yoda